Moving and Shaking

Creating the planning wall of my life for the next two years was fine but then when it came down to actually doing my first steps, it became scary. Although my first steps are pretty simple, it is still a step closer to my goal and dream. My short term goal for now is to get my Undergraduate degree but my real goal is to become a pediatrician but since I have quite a ways, I decided to break it down. My first steps was just to continue to go to class, study, and do my homework. I have completeed these first steps and it feels kind of good to know I have accomplished what I said I wanted and was going to accomplish. Even though it is a great challenge, I'm going to continue to strive on and be the best I can be.

However with doing these steps there is great fear. Barbara Sher talkes about how when you are beginning to move closer to your goal, you start shaking meaning you are afraid and then tend to find ways to almost get out of it. I myself am very guilty of this alot of times and thats what makes it funny because I'm not the only one. Sher calls it resistance. I believe I have experienced some type of resistance before when it came down to completing an assignment for school. I know in my mind and heart that I have to do something really important for school like a paper or project but fear overcomes without me knowing its even fear and then I would be like "Well it can wait", or "I'll have time to do it this day or that day" and basically procrastinating. I didnt think it is a fear of being successful but then again it may be just because of the overwhelment of how things would be once I start living my dream. I believe I have to have more faith in myself and take a chill pill and not be afraid to make a difference in my own life and be all I can be.